Christmas Past and Present

The simplest things that Christmas brings
The feeling in the air some occasional singing
Brings me to the present as I smile at the past
With memories that warm the heart and will always last
The toy cars the video games oh yes it all matters
But if you wanna know it's neither former or latter
I'm reminded of us having those fun Christmas Eves
Enjoyment of going to church as a family if you could believe
Just knowing that it was that beautiful time of year
With nothing to doubt and nothing to fear
Christmas morning and realizing about my wish list
That I got all I wanted and more with nothing missed
Our breakfasts together that turned into dinner
Made this boy happier than a Nobel Peace Prize Winner
Now I look forward to making new memories to cherish
Just as long as my old ones never perish

Privacy

Never mistake it for something simple
It could be something as a small as a pimple
People are entitled to their own lives
Snoop enough and you'll break out in hives
In a world of so much info we forget by the hour
Knowing this information should give you the power
To relent when pressing on certain situations
All you'll do is provide complication
No matter how bad you may want to find out
Remember if you care what life's all about
It's about sharing but respecting each other all the way
In order that we'll reach a higher level someday
I hope people know that when they violate that trust
It's a problem that can be a dam eventually busts
May you always know and appreciate the rights to see
Sometimes in life everyone needs their privacy

What tears to a man's eyes mean

They mean that you've lost him don't try to get him back
No more excuses just to keep the charade intact
If you break me that far, then I'm already broken
Chilling are these words that I have just spoken
Not knowing what's next but knowing it will end
Not looking for an answer not looking for a friend
Just wanna stop these damn tears from leaving my eyes
A heart on the mend will be a heart back on the rise
So this idea that a woman is allowed to control the situation
Just makes it more difficult and compounds the frustration
Asking me to give any more then what i've given is unforgiven
Another reason to change the way that you're living
I catch myself when I think of the past
Knowing that those memories never truly did last
Never knew this feeling and never had forseen
Guess that's what tears to a man's eyes mean

Mad Love....

I see it as insane draining the heart
You wonder if you knew it from the start
That this love would be legend for all the wrong reasons
Wishing you had the opportunity to commit treason
It's not how you should think but you do just because
Looking for anyway to get back to where it was
I see people fight for the point of nothing
Though we all really know it turns out to something
After that fighting I see the loving again
This pattern is crazy I know it'll never end
So I observe quietly just to understand it's meaning
Hopefully it's to the point where I know what I'm seeing
Got women saying I can't take this sh*t anymore
Got men saying I'll do the same sh*t like before
It's amazing how people get so mad over it
It's amazing how they're addicted to the crazy idea of it
I guess that's mad love that's what it does
A love that makes you wonder what exactly it was

Bad Girl Gone Good

The Jay song states that a bad girl can't go good
Maybe it's because the man hasn't tried as he should
Always believing that things can get better
Despite the overwhelming odds and stormy weather
Ever meet a girl that broke your heart a thousand times
Always wondering if she's trying to destroy your mind
I did and I learned that you have to repair a broken heart
It takes a lot of trust and patience from the start
It's unfair to judge a book by it's cover
Knowing these ways makes you a better friend and lover
I can't speak for you all but I know in my eyes
She went from the darkness to the light's sunrise
You have to remind her let her know that this love exists
Let her know it's something that she won't wanna miss
And maybe just maybe she'll change her tune
Like from man to wolf at the first full moon
You really think a bad girl can't go good then you're just plain wrong
For every bad girl there is a good one that comes along

Baggage

I wonder if what is meant to be is exactly that
All I know is she left from where she sat
Is it my fault I'll never know or really understand
Knowing that the boy in me has betrayed the man
And left it all thinking that the grass is always greener
Understanding that there's something more sadistic and meaner
Accepting that all losses are a lesson in winning
If I'm losing this game then why the hell am I grinning
I'm no longer mesmerized by the bright lights
I don't feel as if I need that warm touch at night
If that's the case then why am I shivering
If that's the thought then how come I'm quivering
Lie to yourself bag it up and put it away
You'll remember the words she'll always say
That he's better than you'd be on any day
And that's why she really feels that way
Am I gone not really but I'm no longer here
Getting rid of baggage is the equivalent of erasing fear

Denial

Denied a chance at growth this self hate said
Denied a chance at redemption would I rather be dead
These words are powerful yet negative to a tee
Not quite sure what they mean to me
To get smacked in the face smacked the soul right out of my mind
If I could see the whole world I'd rather be blind
I don't wanna talk about it the conversation has died
Since the day I've been around the truth is a lie
As hurt as I am I will never ever reveal
The thoughts and the words that I'll always feel
That's why I'm determined to stay the course
To use that determination as an energy source
Denial of the hurt denial of the last laugh
Denial that I wiped my hands clean in a bath
Denying this all I will keep my name
Denying the fact that I'll never be the same

Sanity On Trial (AC Throwback) 09

The defendant is crazy the world tends to claim
The plantiff is I as I report this shame
This idea of who you are what you represent
Has ripped me in two and made a serious dent
Just ask yourself why and maybe you could say
What led you to acting and being this way
So vengeful and hurtful a mind out of whack
It's not a moment that you can take back
I want the death penalty for this heinous crime
I cry cause I need you almost all the time
Though tears become fears that make it surreal
Do you know how you really made me feel
Like I'm lost like I'm gone with no sense of being
I thought it was hope and love that I was seeing
My point was made I rest my case
Just look to the defendant the truth is on his face"

Looking Back

This is not a poem obviously. I was just going through some of my old notes on Myspace(soooo 2006) and I can see the very truth in the statement that the more you change, the more you stay the same.


For awhile I was thinking that my sensitivity had taken a nosedive for a lack of care. It's the opposite actually lol, it's because I realized the world is truly a complicated place with complicated people, and I must admit my expectations have lessened. Now whether that's a good or bad thing remains to be seen.


As I head to my next b-day I'm more convinced then ever that I have found my identity, at a cost of learning of how the world really works. I needed to be thrown into something serious due to the fact that I've grown up rather naive. Naive being an understatement. I did not either understand or accept what was out there for me.

Now that I do... it's all about what's next, and what's next is a party.... next week I celebrate... totally free and strong... after that... on to the next endeavor.

Proof Of Life

Through the fire of desire it'll take me higher
I'm doing this life sentence with no crimes no priors
You believe what I'm saying displaying these lines
Understanding this life is that true blue grind
Every day you feel it going out into the world
Not knowing what affects every boy and girl
You're no different than me with the highs and the lows
Sometimes we don't know where the hell this life goes
But truth be told we wake up every day
With a lot to do and plenty to say
I'll never be as happy as when I'm living that life
Maybe one day chilling with my wife
But that's what it's about trials and tribulations
Understand what I'm saying feel the situation
Proof of life is breathing one hour to the day
No need to believe and no need to pray
Cause the proof we have is where we stand
Proof of life in this golden land

Untitled

She will never understand what she means to me
It's why I don't try as much to get her to see
Just show it in my actions in my every day thoughts
You will always be the one for who I so hardly fought
It will always be love with so much more to say
Never taken for granted and expressed every day
I find myself thinking that I have to try more
Push myself harder like never before
But then this comes natural so it's very easy
Don't worry babe I won't feel so queasy
Loving the idea that you view me so high
Loving you and that fact is not a lie
You are the apple of my eye
So let's keep us good and on the fly

Anti-Hero (AC Throwback 2008)

It's a mask that I wear to hide the truth
If you could see me now you'd have the proof
A phony a fake a man without cause
A moment to leave you all with a pause
Tortured Soul that feels that all is lost
This mask I wear that's at a great cost
For my secrets my heart to be kept aside
To avoid the idea of swallowing my pride
The masks engulfs me clouding my thought
Erases the ideals that I once so hardly fought
This mask creates me neither bad or good
This mask destroys me like I thought it would

Pitch Black (PoetAC Throwback 08)

Unseen in the night is the pain of years
Unnoticed in darkness is the emergence of fears
Love is gone with no hope no light to remain
I can't see I can't see I'm going insane
Forgive all my sins my trials of destruction
I hope if I pray I get pitch black's reduction
I'm walking around this vision I try to enhance
With no luck no savior not a ghost of a chance
Tell me you love me it will bring me some light
I won't feel that I can only live free at night
Don't believe it you see it its just that I can't
With this darkness around me all I can do is rant
Faith and belief go hand in hand with sunlight
Darkness and despair complete the dark's fright
I'm losing I'm lost I'm under an attack
I guess thats how it feels when it's Pitch Black

Getting Over You (AC Throwback 2008)

I loved you three times the first was the worst
Like a play written wrong or poorly rehearsed
When you told me the truth I lost all hope
For a time like a year I could not cope
Broken hearts don't mend they bleed as they heal
You'll never truly know but my pain is real
Forgiven perhaps no way I could've missed
The darkness in mind when I remember your kiss
You were poison before but now you're salvation
You provide me with power a new motivation
To leave this sadness this doubt behind
For a day for a time to clear my mind
I'll love once more I know that is true
You want to know why well because I'm over you

I believe (PoetAC Throwback 2008)

I believe in ideals like the ones that you knew
I believe in ideas like the sky that turns blue
I believe in the power of love like the heavens
I believe it could heal me again times seven
I believe in my tears that I've cried once before
I believe in the thought that there could be more
I believe in the sight in the vision of grace
I believe you can return the smile to my face
I believe in the strength of a family or friends
I believe in the day where there's no means to an end
I believe in the soul like you told me there was
I believe in the heart and that's just because
I believe I believe I believe in these words
I believe I believe that they fly like the birds

Advice not taken, advice displaced

I've been advised about a thousand times
Though I realize it's on me to walk the line
You should say this or you should do that
You have to be agressive or just stand pat
What I found out is my way often holds true
O yes what is the world coming to
I always asked a question unsure of my beliefs
Truth be told the advice would give me grief
Now I feel more mature less passive and strong
Decision making is easier all day long
It's amazing how it changes when you're all alone
Those people who advised you left you on your own
But it's the best thing that has ever took place
Thinking about it brings a smile to my face
A growth in my life that I've never seen
I think you guys know what I mean
You learn every day to do what's best for you
If you stick to that advice your sky will always be blue

Untitled

With anything in life you wish for the best
When it comes to me you will be my happiness
As I dream of this world can't see you not with me
I want you to feel the same way hopefully
I've lived through not knowing who I really was
For reasons known and unknown and also because
The people out there never came close to you
I guess the saying that's out there is true
You need those people to teach you the way
But eventually those people leave someday
Then you meet that right person that completes your life
I am patiently waiting to make you my wife
If not that may you be my love for all time
Maybe you'll agree before I finish the line
I'd trade it all for you and that's how I feel
If you knew the truth you know that I'm real

The Most Unstable Stability

In essence define a relationship break it to a tee
Believe it or not sometimes it's chaotic to me
The simplest things can get you so damn mad
Yet it's those same things that's the best you ever had
Love is mad sometimes out of control but as calm as the sea
Sometimes it's as quiet as a summer's night tree
You see the ends to the means yet you never pull the trigger
You realize in the scheme of things it's about something bigger
Now what that may be is a crisis of heart
Or it's something so easy like shopping at Walmart
You understand what I'm saying it's stable but it's not
The calmest but craziest ride if I haven't forgot
You can be removed from the world but be in touch with her
You can lose touch with her but remember what we were
Confusing perhaps that's the feeling that you'll get
It will always be another sunrise or sunset
As I close the book I will remember the truth
As unstable as it seems our stability is the proof
That true love conquers all whether stable or not
The only thing that matters is I love her a lot

Perspective with All Due Respect

Learning to hone and complete my voice
Doesn't exist without a complicated choice
Instead of black and white there are shades of gray
Have to watch what you put out and what you say
Maybe not because you might offend the masses
It might be because you'll never know what passes
Some people learn to be politically correct
That's their cause and what they expect
Others shoot first and ask questions later
It's those people that generate haters
I don't hate but I see the theory
That you'll end up alone and very weary
Not sure where this goes but I'll try to explain
Even if so I might do so in vain
In the past year I have seen my past disappear
As it crumbles so does my fear
But sometimes fear is a very good thing
It keeps you active and always thinking
My emotions have become more honest and forthright
Less than who I was a change like day to night
Has it left me more open to attacks from all sides
I feel more vulnerable even though with less to hide
This fascination sensation of emotion
Has led to a couple interesting if not big commotions
And with that I know that my life has done a full turn
I could say I'm a little worried but damn I'll let it burn

An Emphatic Reply to you

You called me out once and I said I will never fight
You called me out twice and it's on tonight
I tried to be nice respectful and understanding
Make it easy for you give you that safe landing
But you made it a war guns blazing the air
Just telling you now that I really don't care
Thank god I got people that can hold me down
It's why I'm never shaken and I never frown
What you got is an enemy for life and that's how I stand
You spat in my face when I offered a shake of hand
It isn't about hate it's about what you stand for
I know now that I won't stand for it any more
So if I ever EVER see your face again
Just remember you won't be welcomed by a friend
Like I said no hate but pure fury I send
I know for right now this won't be the end

Always stand up for yourself regardless of person place or thing, never compromise your beliefs. Be blessed (this was just writing lol)

The Man

Can a man respond to the problems that await
Can he stand up to oppression confliction and hate
The final exam before he steps to the throne
On the fast track to the greatest they've ever known
Whether politically ethically or domestically speaking
It's that praise that respect that they're seeking
If it was just about love than we'd stop right there
Neatly in place like a boy's combed hair
But money power respect are a reminder to all
That it's about being the man and not dropping the ball
There's nothing worse than a man who can't keep his word
Still learning every day to try to step out from the herd
Emotionally fleeting mentally growing into his own
Trying to avoid the owe back no need for a loan
And it is that all of this that makes for the rhyme
Being that type of man is what's on my mind

Window of Love

I was told love is patient love is kind
Well love is on the lookout in my mind
Hoping you stay to be my queen
The best in the world the best I've ever seen
We live for these moments when you find your mate
The butterflies the fear on our first date
There is nothing better than our first kiss
Moments like that I will never miss
No matter what happens you rule my world
Knowing that you'll be that special girl
Got me crazy thinking you'll be my wife
So happy to know you're sharing my life
A new hope that I never had before
Eventually I'll have my knee to the floor
Looking out my window seeing the love of all time
My love is you through my window in my mind

Open Letter to my future child

Dear future son or daughter,


There is a part of me that is in pure wonderment as I write this. I never thought about this before till recently. I know I'm still a relatively young man, and there is so many things to do and say before we meet, but I wanted to talk to you anyway. I just want to let you know that I love you already. I love you more than I could ever think love was possible, well unless I'm talking about your mother. I'll get to her shortly... anyway when I bring you into this world I want to be ready. Circumstances will come up, that I won't necessarily understand or even accept at first, but I will be ready to love and care for you.


I am hoping in my heart of hearts that you stay strong and believe in yourself as you grow. Of course we will be there to provide that, instill that, let you know that, make those thoughts of good will burn in your brain. You still need to believe that because sometimes it's not the easiest thing to. One of my biggest issues is self belief. Can't, Won't, Don't SHOULD NOT be in your vocabulary, well that is unless you are trying to destroy daddy's stuff but besides that, it should not. You will be great, and you know why I know this? Cmon... you really wanna know? It's because that is who you are. You will be legendary in whatever you do, but I will need you to promise me that you will never push so hard that you forget who you are. Always stay true to yourself and you will be just fine.

Your mother and I will love you very much. She expects you someday, she's also waiting for you... I can only hope that I as Papa Bear will be focused and strong enough for that day and the days following that. I know she will be great because she already is. There is a heart of purity and that is hers. I should probably tell her that more often. Remember to tell her you love her as much as you can, because in this life we forget everyday how much someone means to us, even I can at times. There is only so much fighting and quarreling can do so try and keep that to a minimum. Keep a cool head, and you will see it pay dividends. While all that is true, also don't be afraid to speak your mind, when you grow to anyone, even myself and momma bear. This world is yours my child, and you must carry yourself with the same heart, mind, and soul everyday. That is a clear one, and one that believes that anything is possible. Whether you read this one day I don't know it'll be years from now. All I know is that I love you, and I'll see you when you get here.


Love,

Anthony Canton III

The Essence of....

Spiritually speaking my mind is unclear
Wondering if I live in confusion or live in fear
The answer to these questions give more questions in thought
Everything is on the line in how many times I've fought
The standard the power the restriction to the rule
Learning these lessons is a different kind of school
If it's romance it's something in which I can't commit
If it's professionally speaking I feel I always quit
Trying to change that man that spirit that essence
Providing a new wave a more positive presence
It's this story that makes a man question his mind
It is this story that makes me one of a kind
At the end of the story I am who I'll be
One day I'll understand the essence of me

Journal of a Believer-Chapter 2

A lesson has been learned no need to yearn
Just me and my thoughts as the clock churns
So what I ask of you is simple or so you may think
Pay attention you might lose it before you blink
The theoretical approach to saving the plan
Is refreshing the page revamping the man
What is your theory I ask this question
Questioning constantly answer in succession
Your life is of value remember what I say
And maybe just maybe you'll be saved today
You'll be told that you can't you won't or you shouldn't
Never regret and say I knew I couldn't
A lasting effect of life on the edge
You can always come close but don't jump off the ledge
In closing I will repeat quote chapter and verse
Believing in yourself won't get you in a hearse

The Cross to bear

Every man woman and child with the cross to bear
Whether slick curly black blonde or red hair
The choices you make will provide a map
Represented with a message you'll wear like a cap
Some might be good maybe ugly or bad
These decisions will vary from happy to sad
But we carry it not but never like Jesus did
Legendary religious stories from when we were kids
Our cross is different it's the theory of life
Understanding that is trying to avoid the strife
What's black to me might be white to you
You'd be surprised that I know what you're going through
You haven't found the right mate or you're full of hate
It might be that child support bill or finding out that you're late
Even if you are rich in money and lost at heart
Understand that in theory we're the same from the start
My cross is different as I strip my soul bare
Wondering if carrying it will ever get me there

Quarry

Rocky we are together we remain
Feeling the scrapes cuts and pain
That love's repetoire consists of dodging
Bullets and slurs not just the lodging
Whether we fall off the mountain or hang on
This escape will not be one of a con
It's our trust that survives the thought of an end
Our hearts won't break though they might bend
If you choose to lose than we fall to the death
At that point there'll be nothing left
But the broken bones and hearts to match
Expecting the worst is your very best catch
Survival is dependent on our collective soul
Only way we hang tough and keep control
A quarry full of the rocks of love
Keep the hope of the stars above

Betrayal And The Money We Pay Her

She treats you like a king crown so royal


Behind your back she sings of something disloyal


You met her before in the pretty black dress


Something full of promise but it's something less


She says you're the best whether friend or man


Undermining you every turn the best that she can



Yet you feed her clothe her and pay her bills



Not realizing the look is a look that kills



You won't believe when they say she's bad



You'll exclaim no that's the best that I've had



While doing that she'll sell you out the highest bidder



You'll find yourself angry sometimes bitter



But you pay her with hope that the theory is wrong



Though you've known the truth all along



A stepping stone a prop is all you are



Cold as ice that'll get her very far


At the end of the night we'll get her identity


She strikes full force with heavy propensity


Betrayal is her name we've seen her face


A reminder that your time with her is full of disgrace

Criticism and why it matters and why it doesn't

We will always be judged by people we don't know
We will always feel like we have extra to show
No matter the advice we'll need to respond
It doesn't matter if these two people bond
It's a vice in life that many people require
It's that criticism that at times stokes my fire
It also at times makes me wonder why
That people need to make your character seem like a lie
I'm not blessed with perfection but neither are you
You're not better than me and that fact is true
So instead of pretending like it really means a thing
I'd rather know and understand what you're thinking
Then again does it matter you are the way you are
It's a reason why I would never take it that far
I laugh at the critics for reasons unseen
At the end of the day you'll know what I mean

Relationship Advice Pt.1

Never tell her that she's not doing enough
You'll be asking for hell something too tough
Never believe that she's not being true
If you believe that you don't believe in you
Accept her faults you're not that much better
It's one way to secure much better weather
If she asks for your love you give it to her
Or else you'll remember the way y'all were
If she needs a favor you fulfill the request
Part of this is trying your very very best
I am of the idea that the heart must conquer all
Don't forget when she's lonely give her a call
When it comes to this love just give it a chance
The beginning to my guide of hope and romance

Hidden Message

There is a defiance in self reliance
In life you must learn true compliance
Not saying conform but accept your fate
There's a reason that you feel it's getting late
Through the twists and turns the soul will burn
Hopeful we'll survive and make the right turn
As believing in this as ever can be
Imagine what it might mean to me
I won't cry at loss cause it was destiny
I won't apply for boss I run the rest of me
I am my own man with flas and vices
I'm intrigued by it all the mystery entices
Believe you me I am as good as the earth
Accept what I say you'll find your worth
As a man not perfect but perfect is I
There's a hidden message here I will not lie
Your belief in yourself is all you can use
With that belief you will never lose

Emotional Bleeding

A shot to the heart not the kind that you'd think

The moment of bad news that makes your heart sink

I'm going down I yell for god sakes I need help

I don't think I can do this by myself

It felt like a gunshot but it was just words

Not sure how I feel this that or the third

Expect me to flatline and die from this hurt

As I see the blood pour down my shirt

Ask me to breathe I won't do it anymore

This isn't the same me that you knew before

As I see the light it's nothing but pure fright

Knowing you did this to me out of pure spite

Stop the bleeding they say I respond let it flow

Maybe this is the only way I can ever let it go

Movin on up

They say we live and prosper or die at the rule
It's not as simple as packing up and going to school
The boundaries we face in life are just lines
Progression is truth free the soul of all kinds
I'm not looking to preach just trying to reach
No way would I say try to copy a leech
Expect what the unexpected and just give it a chance
Believe it or not it's like putting on your pants
To say that you can't is a curse worse than any 4 letter word
I'm reminded of that daily and a second time plus a third
How do you say may you abandon the word quit
With those type of words the fire is lit
As I close this rhyme I will say one time
Desire is just that take me higher is the sign

In Memory Of You

I mourn your presence so the pain lessens
I use it as a reminder of a taste like salad dressing
You can't duplicate it though your gone and I hurt
The smell of your perfume the way it was on your t-shirt
I ran my fingers through your hair but you're no longer there
Truth be told I'm really trying not to care
But in memory of you I love that idea every day
When it comes to you I never ran out of things to say
As I go to sleep with this woman next to me
I look at her and it's only you I see
I visit your grave with flowers twice a week
No one knows this but we still do speak
The secret is that I close the eyes and open my heart
With that we'll never ever be apart
I'll remember you always though it's crazy to say
My memory of you is as fresh as a farmer's morning hay

Confessions Of Love

As I'm held in this prison they ask do you confess
I respond hell no I'll stick to loneliness
The warden is girl eyes as bright as the sky
She's doing her best to make me cry
You can get out all you need to do is say the truth
I yell hell no you aint got the proof
She looks me up and down with a paralyzing gaze
Honestly I felt as if these minutes were days
She explains once more please just give me a statement
I tell her that her truth is a lie in amazement
You think you know me I tell this girl
You think that you know what she meant to my world
I love her and I'm not sure she even knows my name
I wish that things between us would never be the same
Never be the same in the sense that we were together
I'm wishing that we could last forever
So if you're looking for I love her goddamnit I love her
There is nothing after and there was nothing before her
As I opened my eyes the prison was gone
And I stared into her eyes my love was no longer lost long

The Traveler

"Pull the Trigger. Just pull it. There's no reason to be scared, no reason for that. You've gone this far junior. You might as well complete the path." Those were the words that Alvin said. It was amazing to me how this man I had just met two weeks ago had gotten me into this mess. "I can't! I can't kill her! I fucking won't! I don't care what you do, we're turning ourselves in right now damnit!" I shouted with a voice cracking. These moments aren't exactly what you would be expecting when you're 19 years old having someone at gunpoint. "I appreciate you having your morals, but I don't give a flying fuck about them. Either you kill her, or I kill you both, the choice is yours." He said very calmly. What a pure dickhead. So I guess I either commit my first murder or die for no reason. "Ok, fine, you son of a bitch." As I took the gun and pointed it at Shaunie. "I'm sorry but I need you to turn around and get on your knees." I said. This is what happens when you see too many spy movies. What can I say? It sounded cool. "No, please, you know I don't deserve this. You don't have to listen to him, you don't owe him anything." She said with fear in her eyes. I needed a way out of this without killing her, I couldn't kill anyone. I WOULDN'T kill anyone. I decided to pretend to harass her so I pulled her close with the gun pointed towards her temple. "If you trust me, I will get you out of this alive I promise. Now get on your damn knees!" I yelled. I think Alvin was convinced. "It's about time you grew some balls, kid. Now do us a favor so we can get out of here, Kill the Bitch now please." He said calmly. Ok, I was really hoping that someone would come save us here but it looks like that has no chance of happening. This is risky but I don't have another choice. Damn I wish I was home eating right now.


To Be Continued

My Father the great

I'll never be able to walk a mile in your shoes
Though you have experience that I'll be able to use
I won't see things like you or provide what you can
All I know is that you have made me a better man
I don't agree with your tactics yet I see what they are
It's one of the reasons I've made it this far
I'm not matured not sure if I'll ever get there
But I've seen and heard your teachings everywhere
I'll regret what I didn't tell you the things that mattered
Like it wasn't just one you helped me climb the ladder
When I get married I wanna hear you shout loud
There's my boy and that I did you proud
Will I get these chances I wonder everyday
As I write these words I know I'll forget to say
That a father is so valuable in this world
To every little or big every boy or girl
They give you that strength to take you high
They also tell you to bear it take out the sigh
If it wasn't for mine I wouldn't be here
Not letting him know is the greatest fear

Self-Searching

They say wish on a star you'll find your way
Just remember it's you who will make your day
Self reliance is like chicken soup for the soul
A reminder of how you get from broken to whole
Hey love is great a partner is a blessing
But let it be your addition like salad dressing
You make your breaks you decide your path
Gotta do this the whole way no need for way of half
I've lived this long so I'll keep living strong
I've known my way whether it's right or wrong
It's truly heartening the path of self discovery
When you say to yourself it's good because of me
I'll leave you with this as you walk on this road
Sure you need someone in life to lighten the load
But at the end of the day to an extent it's your story
You and I are not the only ones there were plenty before me

Live Love

Love and care mix both you have it all
As good as the sound of your lovers last call
Feel the emotion and let it consume you
Only let it when it's right when its real and true
In my experience the right time is here
All I require is my baby being near
For the rest of you out there don't take it for granted
But when the moment comes feel it all feel enchanted
You are on a journey that the heart desires
Live it and love it as it takes you higher
I am of the theory that you must take a chance
Whether it's a decision or life in this case romance
I have I feel good and my advice to you
When it's right forever it'll always feel new
So love like you never thought you could
Believe like you never thought you would
Relief in mind body and soul
Love is the answer and it is your control

Downpour

Let it rain as I look in the sky
I swear the water isn't tears in my eyes
I ask for forgiveness and peace in my heart
This reason is here why we will be apart
As crazy as it seems as unreal as it sounds
All I'm feeling is this rain all around
I'm not feeling lost I'm not feelin sad
Just trying to avoid this rain not trying to feel bad
Looking for better days and the sun's full glow
Not sure where I am or where I'm going to go
Whether I'm losing my style or losing my grace
The rain can't hide the pain on my face
Getting ready to fight this like never before
It's a constant battle like a sudden downpour

Life not in a nutshell, but in a four course meal

You learn to live in good times or bad
All I'll remember is the good times we've had
You learn to be happy even in times of doubt
Sometimes we forget that love is what it's all about
I'll lose the idea to win the reality
Simplistically speaking in all actuality
I'm understanding that life is battles and wars
There's days when the heart sinks on others it soars
I just keep remembering what my momma said
Her thoughts remain with me as I go to bed
Life is but a dream my son just keep dreaming
It has to be real these dreams that I'm seeing
I'm hoping for the best never fearing for the worst
Not trying to look too hard to quench that thirst
Accepting but not relenting as the journey takes face
Not sure where I am but I think it's a good place

The Only Love That Matters To Me

I won't walk away till I learn to say
I love you I love you those words everyday
I will be chained to your door with an echo so loud
I will scream to the heavens so faithful so proud
It's why I'm here it's why I believe
It's why I know you'll give me reprieve
The proof of life is in what's in your heart
It's what makes us strong and sets us apart
As I live with a smile knowing it was worthwhile
To appreciate your look recognize the style
You're an angel of mine I've seen all the signs
I've known since the beginning I'm not wasting time
You're the only love that matters to me
You're the only love that I want to see

Question Existing

We all have questions in life don't we? Sometimes we can't find the answers to them, so we continue to ask, as life goes along we'll figure it out... but it always exists.

It's hard to explain what's passing by
When it's the who what when or why
These answers to questions that trump my mind
I wonder right now what is on the line
Wishing to the heavens it can be like before
I don't want to make this subject too sore
Belief in what's true is lost on me
I'm not sure if I'm truly ready to see
The end of the story that started so magic
That's ending in a way that's incredibly tragic
In this life it's said that we're born alone
Understanding the things that can't condone
What I put in isn't what I'm getting out
Not really getting what this life's about
At the end of the day need a cure to this cancer
Maybe it'll be this question that I get an answer


Living the dream right?

Stand Up

Greetings friends and other readers, I've been gone for awhile... a little sabbatical of sorts... but I have returned with some new perspective and some new stuff of course...stay tuned...





Legit to a science we pronounce the truth

So real to our conscience no need for proof

That we need to distinguish our time and place

No longer a divide between state and race

These issues are poison a kind so deadly

Not such a quick murder but one so steadily

I've seen the promise of something so great

Yet burned to rubble by visions of hate

It's not just about country it's more about global

Let's swallow our pride and learn to be noble

Can the strength of us all try to fight this menace

Change the landscape now for a positive presence

Not about America its about everyone

To understand that this fight has just begun

We must stand to protect what we hold so dearly

Until we stand up for that we'll never see clearly





This also applies to me, life is a dream and we truly never realize that, I'm hoping I do someday....