Hidden Message

There is a defiance in self reliance
In life you must learn true compliance
Not saying conform but accept your fate
There's a reason that you feel it's getting late
Through the twists and turns the soul will burn
Hopeful we'll survive and make the right turn
As believing in this as ever can be
Imagine what it might mean to me
I won't cry at loss cause it was destiny
I won't apply for boss I run the rest of me
I am my own man with flas and vices
I'm intrigued by it all the mystery entices
Believe you me I am as good as the earth
Accept what I say you'll find your worth
As a man not perfect but perfect is I
There's a hidden message here I will not lie
Your belief in yourself is all you can use
With that belief you will never lose

Emotional Bleeding

A shot to the heart not the kind that you'd think

The moment of bad news that makes your heart sink

I'm going down I yell for god sakes I need help

I don't think I can do this by myself

It felt like a gunshot but it was just words

Not sure how I feel this that or the third

Expect me to flatline and die from this hurt

As I see the blood pour down my shirt

Ask me to breathe I won't do it anymore

This isn't the same me that you knew before

As I see the light it's nothing but pure fright

Knowing you did this to me out of pure spite

Stop the bleeding they say I respond let it flow

Maybe this is the only way I can ever let it go

Movin on up

They say we live and prosper or die at the rule
It's not as simple as packing up and going to school
The boundaries we face in life are just lines
Progression is truth free the soul of all kinds
I'm not looking to preach just trying to reach
No way would I say try to copy a leech
Expect what the unexpected and just give it a chance
Believe it or not it's like putting on your pants
To say that you can't is a curse worse than any 4 letter word
I'm reminded of that daily and a second time plus a third
How do you say may you abandon the word quit
With those type of words the fire is lit
As I close this rhyme I will say one time
Desire is just that take me higher is the sign

In Memory Of You

I mourn your presence so the pain lessens
I use it as a reminder of a taste like salad dressing
You can't duplicate it though your gone and I hurt
The smell of your perfume the way it was on your t-shirt
I ran my fingers through your hair but you're no longer there
Truth be told I'm really trying not to care
But in memory of you I love that idea every day
When it comes to you I never ran out of things to say
As I go to sleep with this woman next to me
I look at her and it's only you I see
I visit your grave with flowers twice a week
No one knows this but we still do speak
The secret is that I close the eyes and open my heart
With that we'll never ever be apart
I'll remember you always though it's crazy to say
My memory of you is as fresh as a farmer's morning hay

Confessions Of Love

As I'm held in this prison they ask do you confess
I respond hell no I'll stick to loneliness
The warden is girl eyes as bright as the sky
She's doing her best to make me cry
You can get out all you need to do is say the truth
I yell hell no you aint got the proof
She looks me up and down with a paralyzing gaze
Honestly I felt as if these minutes were days
She explains once more please just give me a statement
I tell her that her truth is a lie in amazement
You think you know me I tell this girl
You think that you know what she meant to my world
I love her and I'm not sure she even knows my name
I wish that things between us would never be the same
Never be the same in the sense that we were together
I'm wishing that we could last forever
So if you're looking for I love her goddamnit I love her
There is nothing after and there was nothing before her
As I opened my eyes the prison was gone
And I stared into her eyes my love was no longer lost long

The Traveler

"Pull the Trigger. Just pull it. There's no reason to be scared, no reason for that. You've gone this far junior. You might as well complete the path." Those were the words that Alvin said. It was amazing to me how this man I had just met two weeks ago had gotten me into this mess. "I can't! I can't kill her! I fucking won't! I don't care what you do, we're turning ourselves in right now damnit!" I shouted with a voice cracking. These moments aren't exactly what you would be expecting when you're 19 years old having someone at gunpoint. "I appreciate you having your morals, but I don't give a flying fuck about them. Either you kill her, or I kill you both, the choice is yours." He said very calmly. What a pure dickhead. So I guess I either commit my first murder or die for no reason. "Ok, fine, you son of a bitch." As I took the gun and pointed it at Shaunie. "I'm sorry but I need you to turn around and get on your knees." I said. This is what happens when you see too many spy movies. What can I say? It sounded cool. "No, please, you know I don't deserve this. You don't have to listen to him, you don't owe him anything." She said with fear in her eyes. I needed a way out of this without killing her, I couldn't kill anyone. I WOULDN'T kill anyone. I decided to pretend to harass her so I pulled her close with the gun pointed towards her temple. "If you trust me, I will get you out of this alive I promise. Now get on your damn knees!" I yelled. I think Alvin was convinced. "It's about time you grew some balls, kid. Now do us a favor so we can get out of here, Kill the Bitch now please." He said calmly. Ok, I was really hoping that someone would come save us here but it looks like that has no chance of happening. This is risky but I don't have another choice. Damn I wish I was home eating right now.


To Be Continued

My Father the great

I'll never be able to walk a mile in your shoes
Though you have experience that I'll be able to use
I won't see things like you or provide what you can
All I know is that you have made me a better man
I don't agree with your tactics yet I see what they are
It's one of the reasons I've made it this far
I'm not matured not sure if I'll ever get there
But I've seen and heard your teachings everywhere
I'll regret what I didn't tell you the things that mattered
Like it wasn't just one you helped me climb the ladder
When I get married I wanna hear you shout loud
There's my boy and that I did you proud
Will I get these chances I wonder everyday
As I write these words I know I'll forget to say
That a father is so valuable in this world
To every little or big every boy or girl
They give you that strength to take you high
They also tell you to bear it take out the sigh
If it wasn't for mine I wouldn't be here
Not letting him know is the greatest fear