The Essence of....

Spiritually speaking my mind is unclear
Wondering if I live in confusion or live in fear
The answer to these questions give more questions in thought
Everything is on the line in how many times I've fought
The standard the power the restriction to the rule
Learning these lessons is a different kind of school
If it's romance it's something in which I can't commit
If it's professionally speaking I feel I always quit
Trying to change that man that spirit that essence
Providing a new wave a more positive presence
It's this story that makes a man question his mind
It is this story that makes me one of a kind
At the end of the story I am who I'll be
One day I'll understand the essence of me

Journal of a Believer-Chapter 2

A lesson has been learned no need to yearn
Just me and my thoughts as the clock churns
So what I ask of you is simple or so you may think
Pay attention you might lose it before you blink
The theoretical approach to saving the plan
Is refreshing the page revamping the man
What is your theory I ask this question
Questioning constantly answer in succession
Your life is of value remember what I say
And maybe just maybe you'll be saved today
You'll be told that you can't you won't or you shouldn't
Never regret and say I knew I couldn't
A lasting effect of life on the edge
You can always come close but don't jump off the ledge
In closing I will repeat quote chapter and verse
Believing in yourself won't get you in a hearse

The Cross to bear

Every man woman and child with the cross to bear
Whether slick curly black blonde or red hair
The choices you make will provide a map
Represented with a message you'll wear like a cap
Some might be good maybe ugly or bad
These decisions will vary from happy to sad
But we carry it not but never like Jesus did
Legendary religious stories from when we were kids
Our cross is different it's the theory of life
Understanding that is trying to avoid the strife
What's black to me might be white to you
You'd be surprised that I know what you're going through
You haven't found the right mate or you're full of hate
It might be that child support bill or finding out that you're late
Even if you are rich in money and lost at heart
Understand that in theory we're the same from the start
My cross is different as I strip my soul bare
Wondering if carrying it will ever get me there

Quarry

Rocky we are together we remain
Feeling the scrapes cuts and pain
That love's repetoire consists of dodging
Bullets and slurs not just the lodging
Whether we fall off the mountain or hang on
This escape will not be one of a con
It's our trust that survives the thought of an end
Our hearts won't break though they might bend
If you choose to lose than we fall to the death
At that point there'll be nothing left
But the broken bones and hearts to match
Expecting the worst is your very best catch
Survival is dependent on our collective soul
Only way we hang tough and keep control
A quarry full of the rocks of love
Keep the hope of the stars above

Betrayal And The Money We Pay Her

She treats you like a king crown so royal


Behind your back she sings of something disloyal


You met her before in the pretty black dress


Something full of promise but it's something less


She says you're the best whether friend or man


Undermining you every turn the best that she can



Yet you feed her clothe her and pay her bills



Not realizing the look is a look that kills



You won't believe when they say she's bad



You'll exclaim no that's the best that I've had



While doing that she'll sell you out the highest bidder



You'll find yourself angry sometimes bitter



But you pay her with hope that the theory is wrong



Though you've known the truth all along



A stepping stone a prop is all you are



Cold as ice that'll get her very far


At the end of the night we'll get her identity


She strikes full force with heavy propensity


Betrayal is her name we've seen her face


A reminder that your time with her is full of disgrace

Criticism and why it matters and why it doesn't

We will always be judged by people we don't know
We will always feel like we have extra to show
No matter the advice we'll need to respond
It doesn't matter if these two people bond
It's a vice in life that many people require
It's that criticism that at times stokes my fire
It also at times makes me wonder why
That people need to make your character seem like a lie
I'm not blessed with perfection but neither are you
You're not better than me and that fact is true
So instead of pretending like it really means a thing
I'd rather know and understand what you're thinking
Then again does it matter you are the way you are
It's a reason why I would never take it that far
I laugh at the critics for reasons unseen
At the end of the day you'll know what I mean

Relationship Advice Pt.1

Never tell her that she's not doing enough
You'll be asking for hell something too tough
Never believe that she's not being true
If you believe that you don't believe in you
Accept her faults you're not that much better
It's one way to secure much better weather
If she asks for your love you give it to her
Or else you'll remember the way y'all were
If she needs a favor you fulfill the request
Part of this is trying your very very best
I am of the idea that the heart must conquer all
Don't forget when she's lonely give her a call
When it comes to this love just give it a chance
The beginning to my guide of hope and romance