It's Never Enough

When is it enough? It's never enough. Still working on "Finding Peace in The Storm" so while I do that, some free writing here.


I'm never enough is the phrase in my mind
I'm looking for otherwise but I don't see a sign
A discredit a negative seems like it's your statement
I feel like deja vu getting used to your beratement
So as much as I try It's not enough in your eyes
Don't want to tell the truth because the truth is lies
It's never enough so what's the point of asking a question
If it ever was enough then this feeling would lessen
My heart wanting to know why but I fall further in thought
Wondering if I already lost for what I have fought
And in this effort it never was enough for you
And knowing these facts does color what's true
It doesn't matter if I'm hurting or what I'm going through
This isn't the life that I thought I knew
Enough is enough I'm tired of the lie
Knowing that enough isn't realistic to try

War

      

The never ending war like my father said

As we fight for what’s living and for what’s dead

Not just in people but the ideals we stand for

Never has the urgency been this high before

As individuality has been quantified as a loss

With a cult message no matter the cost

I hope that we continue to fight to the day

So at the very end there’ll be more words to say

I won’t live in fear I’ll fight for what’s right

The goal the plan is to bring the truth to light

So that one day I can tell my son

That he won’t fight this war that’s begun

That one day he can express without being shunned

That his thoughts won’t be the only ones

Opinionated politics have given this war a name

Social media has left us with nothing but shame

Standing while seeing the war around me

Continuing the fight is the future I see

Significance of Ignorance

You deem it necessary for me to obey
Then you state that I don't have shit to say
As simple as a word that sharp like a knife
Demonstrating ignorance in this life
Support the crimes you commit I will not acquit
I will stand though you tell me to sit
As small as a drop as hard as the wall
Demonstrating ignorance hold my calls
Looking for a reason to justify your existence
Disrespecting me further with your continued persistence
Demonstrating ignorance you are the villain
Will fight this "evil" with all I have god willin
Significance of ignorance the definition of belligerence
Hope maybe you start to understand the inference
In this lesson I'll lessen your cause for concern
Maybe without a little ignorance you just might learn

The Glass Society

Touch them they break faster than the day
Faster than when the hooker asks you to pay
They tried to stop me but they crack at change
Can never control me far out of firing range
I hit them hard in the jaw cause it's made of glass
I hit them more the more time does pass
You have to hit them because they're all about control
To bend the mind and rule the soul
Free speech and free thought a smokescreen I see
Knowing what this world means to me
I strive to be a leader to be strong as stone
Never will I accept the glass nor will I condone
The lack of faith that exists in the world today
I know now is my time to seize the sun's rays
Let them know that color or gender is irrelevant
Let them feel that leadership is that transcendent
So we break them and breakthrough like a battering ram
We break the glass society simply because we can

Sacrifice

What's necessary for some is vital to others
Like the love of a child portrayed by it's mother
Love that topic as passionate as fire searing the sky
Learning that fire can change the look in your eye
If it's for you I'll do it no questions asked
If you asked me to hide I'll wear a mask
If you asked me to walk through hell I'll say when
Dodging bullets and explosions like army men
If you told me you needed it I'd do whatever I could
Even if I wasn't very sure that you would
It's what I'm programmed to do even if people don't understand
When it comes to sacrifice there is no line in the sand
I'll sacrifice everything to save you always
Sacrifice is the model for the rest of my days.

The Hero who left

In grace at a time that couldn't be described
The hero decided to become a scribe
To tell his story as he walked away from it all
No more damsels no more rescue calls
He walked away because the pressure became immense
Even stronger than his feeling that was that intense
He was sad but strong in knowing that it was done
It was time that a new story had begun
I couldn't lie he wrote feeling the tears in his soul
I had lost my way and lost all control
The ideal to have feelings was too much to take
I couldn't lose that part I worked hard to make
So I take the cape off I run from that plan
Become different and normal a regular man
This is the life of the hero that left
Though the people thought he committed a theft

Talk Back

I can't listen to her when she talks back to me like that
It makes me irritated can't keep my thoughts intact
I can't defend myself so I don't I retreat to my shell
There's a reason this sh*t sounds like a hard sell
Always priding myself on being as nice as I can
But how should you feel when a woman disrespects that man
Forget getting physical that's a waste of my time
I need to go to jail just because you get inside my mind
Never that but sometimes it makes me wonder
What can I say that has the type of thunder
To get you to calm down and leave it alone
This anger I feel I sure as hell can't condone
It is that and just that is why I cry
Maybe that will send a message tears in my eyes
Cause nothing else works and with this strength I lack
I just learn to keep quiet and never talk back