The Traveler

"Pull the Trigger. Just pull it. There's no reason to be scared, no reason for that. You've gone this far junior. You might as well complete the path." Those were the words that Alvin said. It was amazing to me how this man I had just met two weeks ago had gotten me into this mess. "I can't! I can't kill her! I fucking won't! I don't care what you do, we're turning ourselves in right now damnit!" I shouted with a voice cracking. These moments aren't exactly what you would be expecting when you're 19 years old having someone at gunpoint. "I appreciate you having your morals, but I don't give a flying fuck about them. Either you kill her, or I kill you both, the choice is yours." He said very calmly. What a pure dickhead. So I guess I either commit my first murder or die for no reason. "Ok, fine, you son of a bitch." As I took the gun and pointed it at Shaunie. "I'm sorry but I need you to turn around and get on your knees." I said. This is what happens when you see too many spy movies. What can I say? It sounded cool. "No, please, you know I don't deserve this. You don't have to listen to him, you don't owe him anything." She said with fear in her eyes. I needed a way out of this without killing her, I couldn't kill anyone. I WOULDN'T kill anyone. I decided to pretend to harass her so I pulled her close with the gun pointed towards her temple. "If you trust me, I will get you out of this alive I promise. Now get on your damn knees!" I yelled. I think Alvin was convinced. "It's about time you grew some balls, kid. Now do us a favor so we can get out of here, Kill the Bitch now please." He said calmly. Ok, I was really hoping that someone would come save us here but it looks like that has no chance of happening. This is risky but I don't have another choice. Damn I wish I was home eating right now.


To Be Continued

My Father the great

I'll never be able to walk a mile in your shoes
Though you have experience that I'll be able to use
I won't see things like you or provide what you can
All I know is that you have made me a better man
I don't agree with your tactics yet I see what they are
It's one of the reasons I've made it this far
I'm not matured not sure if I'll ever get there
But I've seen and heard your teachings everywhere
I'll regret what I didn't tell you the things that mattered
Like it wasn't just one you helped me climb the ladder
When I get married I wanna hear you shout loud
There's my boy and that I did you proud
Will I get these chances I wonder everyday
As I write these words I know I'll forget to say
That a father is so valuable in this world
To every little or big every boy or girl
They give you that strength to take you high
They also tell you to bear it take out the sigh
If it wasn't for mine I wouldn't be here
Not letting him know is the greatest fear

Self-Searching

They say wish on a star you'll find your way
Just remember it's you who will make your day
Self reliance is like chicken soup for the soul
A reminder of how you get from broken to whole
Hey love is great a partner is a blessing
But let it be your addition like salad dressing
You make your breaks you decide your path
Gotta do this the whole way no need for way of half
I've lived this long so I'll keep living strong
I've known my way whether it's right or wrong
It's truly heartening the path of self discovery
When you say to yourself it's good because of me
I'll leave you with this as you walk on this road
Sure you need someone in life to lighten the load
But at the end of the day to an extent it's your story
You and I are not the only ones there were plenty before me

Live Love

Love and care mix both you have it all
As good as the sound of your lovers last call
Feel the emotion and let it consume you
Only let it when it's right when its real and true
In my experience the right time is here
All I require is my baby being near
For the rest of you out there don't take it for granted
But when the moment comes feel it all feel enchanted
You are on a journey that the heart desires
Live it and love it as it takes you higher
I am of the theory that you must take a chance
Whether it's a decision or life in this case romance
I have I feel good and my advice to you
When it's right forever it'll always feel new
So love like you never thought you could
Believe like you never thought you would
Relief in mind body and soul
Love is the answer and it is your control

Downpour

Let it rain as I look in the sky
I swear the water isn't tears in my eyes
I ask for forgiveness and peace in my heart
This reason is here why we will be apart
As crazy as it seems as unreal as it sounds
All I'm feeling is this rain all around
I'm not feeling lost I'm not feelin sad
Just trying to avoid this rain not trying to feel bad
Looking for better days and the sun's full glow
Not sure where I am or where I'm going to go
Whether I'm losing my style or losing my grace
The rain can't hide the pain on my face
Getting ready to fight this like never before
It's a constant battle like a sudden downpour

Life not in a nutshell, but in a four course meal

You learn to live in good times or bad
All I'll remember is the good times we've had
You learn to be happy even in times of doubt
Sometimes we forget that love is what it's all about
I'll lose the idea to win the reality
Simplistically speaking in all actuality
I'm understanding that life is battles and wars
There's days when the heart sinks on others it soars
I just keep remembering what my momma said
Her thoughts remain with me as I go to bed
Life is but a dream my son just keep dreaming
It has to be real these dreams that I'm seeing
I'm hoping for the best never fearing for the worst
Not trying to look too hard to quench that thirst
Accepting but not relenting as the journey takes face
Not sure where I am but I think it's a good place

The Only Love That Matters To Me

I won't walk away till I learn to say
I love you I love you those words everyday
I will be chained to your door with an echo so loud
I will scream to the heavens so faithful so proud
It's why I'm here it's why I believe
It's why I know you'll give me reprieve
The proof of life is in what's in your heart
It's what makes us strong and sets us apart
As I live with a smile knowing it was worthwhile
To appreciate your look recognize the style
You're an angel of mine I've seen all the signs
I've known since the beginning I'm not wasting time
You're the only love that matters to me
You're the only love that I want to see